My Contribution

For a while now I have felt that I am to contribute to this blog. I have taken comfort in reading the posts that my Nancy has written and I am amazed by her ability to put everything going on inside of her in a eloquent and beautiful way. I do not posses the same gifting that she has. As I write I get lost some where and lose my train of thought and yet I hear God asking me to contribute to this blog.

This morning when I woke I heard God say to me "I desire to spend time with you Jason" and my response was the same. My alone time with God in the morning is so vital to me, I love Father God so much and am so glad I get to spend time alone with him almost everyday. My strength, joy, peace and many other things come from Him. This warms my heart. A few years ago the life I knew was completely destroyed, like a tornado destroys a home so my life was destroyed by a divorce. During the time of rebuilding, God became real to me. This revelation of intimacy with God was and is amazing. I finally experienced a tangible  reality of God in my life. I could feel His presence and could hear His voice more clearly. Intimacy with God is intoxicating in a good way. Jesus is my closest friend and companion, even as I write this I know He is here with me, I sense His presence with me. So, in the midst of tragedy, God became real  and He restored me and blessed me with my amazing and beautiful wife, He is so good. Not sure why i am sharing all of this other than to say that in the midst of great pain God is close to the brokenhearted but I believe the brokenhearted will miss the blessing if they don't turn to Him, that is a tragedy and yet I understand why we don't turn to him in our pain. 

So....this morning after I made a journal entry I went back in my journal and read some of my previous entries and it was then God made it clear to me what I was to share on this blog: my journal entries starting with the entry the morning before losing Norah and selected ones thereafter. I will start sharing this week. Thank you and God bless you~Jason